How Can I Do This?
Stories
Sharing Visions
Divine Revelations, Angels, And Holy Coincidences
In 1995, at the age of 25, I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. I felt as if God had let me down, abandoned me. I thought that I was being punished. I fell into a depression for three years. Feeling and knowing that I wouldn't be able to walk well, or run, was very painful to me. And to top this off, God was calling me into the ministry.
"How can I do this?" I asked God over and over again. "How can I minister or visit the sick when I can hardly walk?"
God came to me with an answer that totally changed my thinking. In January of 1997, I was serving as a student pastor, and I went to a religious bookstore to buy supplies for the children at church. I gathered my items and walked to the cashier counter. A woman rang up my items, and she took my name for their mailing list. I thanked her, and as I walked away she ran after me and said, "You're not working because of your disability."
I looked at her, stunned. I had not told her that I had MS, or anything about my situation. She went on to tell me that she was blessed with a gift by which she could communicate with the spirit within another person. She said that as we were talking, her spirit was talking to my spirit, telling her of my anguish.
She said that God did not do this to me, that God was going to cure me, and that I was to continue working for the Lord. I stood there, in shock, smiling and speechless. I thanked her and told her I would continue to work for God. Then I left with tears of joy in my eyes, once again assured that God had not left me, even in my time of pain and frustration.
Six months later, I went back to that religious store and I asked the staff and the manager where this woman was. They said no woman fitting that description had ever worked there. I felt a chill go through me, because I knew I had seen an Angel of God, and I was given a promise from God. This is a promise I still believe in, for today, in January, 2003, I am walking without my cane, and I am much stronger. God is still in the healing business. Praise the Lord!
Phil Gilman
My "vision" occurred in the early morning, as I lay in bed, neither asleep nor awake. All I "heard" was a voice; I did not "see" anything. The voice said, "Your gramma prayed for you." This came at a time after I had left the church, feeling very betrayed and abandoned by God, but was tentatively taking steps back. I was unsure if I was acceptable, either to the church or to God. When I heard this voice, I knew that God accepted me, "Just As I Am," whether the church did or not.
"How can I do this?" I asked God over and over again. "How can I minister or visit the sick when I can hardly walk?"
God came to me with an answer that totally changed my thinking. In January of 1997, I was serving as a student pastor, and I went to a religious bookstore to buy supplies for the children at church. I gathered my items and walked to the cashier counter. A woman rang up my items, and she took my name for their mailing list. I thanked her, and as I walked away she ran after me and said, "You're not working because of your disability."
I looked at her, stunned. I had not told her that I had MS, or anything about my situation. She went on to tell me that she was blessed with a gift by which she could communicate with the spirit within another person. She said that as we were talking, her spirit was talking to my spirit, telling her of my anguish.
She said that God did not do this to me, that God was going to cure me, and that I was to continue working for the Lord. I stood there, in shock, smiling and speechless. I thanked her and told her I would continue to work for God. Then I left with tears of joy in my eyes, once again assured that God had not left me, even in my time of pain and frustration.
Six months later, I went back to that religious store and I asked the staff and the manager where this woman was. They said no woman fitting that description had ever worked there. I felt a chill go through me, because I knew I had seen an Angel of God, and I was given a promise from God. This is a promise I still believe in, for today, in January, 2003, I am walking without my cane, and I am much stronger. God is still in the healing business. Praise the Lord!
Phil Gilman
My "vision" occurred in the early morning, as I lay in bed, neither asleep nor awake. All I "heard" was a voice; I did not "see" anything. The voice said, "Your gramma prayed for you." This came at a time after I had left the church, feeling very betrayed and abandoned by God, but was tentatively taking steps back. I was unsure if I was acceptable, either to the church or to God. When I heard this voice, I knew that God accepted me, "Just As I Am," whether the church did or not.
